Sunday, November 18, 2012

Starting to talk back with God... the beginning

 So you thought you didn't need God. You thought you could be good enough without God, with your pride, hatred, anger...
Well in my case, NO I Couldn't.
I fought against God. I even disliked God a lot. The fact that God wasn't showing healing in my family's environment. My mother is still sick of cancer and she is not getting good. Mom is in the hospital in the urgency room. I go to visit her during my lunch hour from work. It is hard to see her like that. She is losing control and probably losing faith too.
In the mist of suffering, frustration and anger with God. Suddenly my brother invited me to a meeting in what he called "a non denominational youth group". I went there and the spiritual environment was peaceful. A young man about 24 was talking about reconciliation with God. I was broken inside. After the mini speech they turned the lights off and told us to pray in intimacy with God. I prayed like never before. Something changed, I made peace with God, I cried, I returned to God with faith.
That was my personal experience of spiritual reconciliation.
Let's see what happens. I am expectant...